Day 69

Nick names are a very bizarre thing when you really sit down and think about them. Ha ha. I have some weird nick names for people. My friend Alyssa is Rosenip. Janessa is J Money! (Exclamation mark included). Roxanne is Rockstarsan (Thank you Sam).  And in return... I have some strange ones that have been given to me. Triple Nickel, Rosenip, Monkeyshine, Balemily.
It is just bizarre to me how something starts and then just turns into the norm. Our animals growing up were much the same way. Rarely being called by their actual names.

So tonight is a friends birthday party. I have not talked to her or seen her in months. Could be interesting. Thank you Target for giving me the excuse to duck out early if necessary.

Day 68

I had a very strange dream last night.It was about some guy that I was dating. We had gotten really close really fast and then he started doing hard core drugs and going crazy. He was physically abusive and I had to get a restraining order against him and hide out in some back woods farm. So very strange. No idea where that came from.
Anyway, today was another day of not wanting to be in my house. What a shock. I hate being at home. I hate going to work. Ugh.
But thanks to Janessa and Aiden, I was given a place to escape. I went and had a few good laughs and some much needed baby time. So that helps.

Tomorrow is Monday. Ugh for another week.

Day 67

I had a good day today up until the end. I worked, and then cleaned my room and did laundry all while watching Lord of the Rings. Then this boy in my life picked me up and we spent four hours at OMSI. We looked around at all the displays and checked out the super cool Lego exhibit, went to the Planetarium and saw a show on black holes and then... He took me to the IMAX about the Orangutan orphan rescue. Yup. He likes me. It was so awesome and made me really inspired to get back into that field. I think its time to buckle down and do some research on getting an internship or something to one of these places. I need to play with monkeys.
Then we went to a nice dinner at a pub that gets its meat from Carlton Farms. So that was good. Then we came back home and had a long talk about where we both want to go and how we are sitting as far as this relationship goes.
Then I went to a bonfire at some other friends house.
Then I came home. And checked the mail. Now... my good day has come to a screeching halt. In the mail was a confirmation from the Post Office of a change of address for Hans. He has changed his address to mine. Then to top it off... I get on Facebook and for the second time he has changed his status to talking shit about Ben. Not ok. I am so offended and I feel like he totally went behind my back with the change of address thing. I guess maybe I should look for a new place to live come May. I feel like I have absolutely no say in a place that I pay rent. He seems to have taken over. I have no energy for the fight.

Day 66

Holy emotional rollercoaster Batman!
Since Tuesday it has been a stream of days of inconsistency and a play on how much one can take.
I got excited that the battle with the gym was finally over and that I could write off that distress every week. But ha, joke is on me. Only to find out that yet again, Les has figured out how to pull it together at the last moment.
On top of that, Target is just as unstable. With the different levels of management consistently counter acting each others decisions, its hard to just get simple tasks done.
And then the yogurt shop. As if trying to satisfy Kawika wasnt hard enough, now we ad Will into the equation. He is so stoned and can barely even function as a human being, let alone the manager of a business.
Today, he showed up two hours early, unaware of what day it was. Then when I asked Kawika if I should stay or not, he said yes. But then showed up a few minutes later with lunch for him and Will. Then, Will offers me what is left of his after he shoveled it into his mouth. Please. I want nothing to do with anything that has even come into close vicinity to your mouth. Ugh.
I hate that I have three jobs that are literally destroying my very being. I am trying so hard to salvage the inner me. And every time I get a leg up, something like this happens. Thanks for making me feel worth less.
Oh well, tomorrow is a new day. 

Day 65

Its been an interesting last few days. Dealing with the gym being threatened to shut down. And then not actually being shut down. I was hoping that the battle would finally be over.
I am exhausted from the up and down drama.
Seeing people I have not seen in a while.
And sleeping for 17 hours straight.

Oh boy.
Got a busy weekend planned with lots of good people and activities.

Day 64

Well. Today was a new experience. That is for sure. For the first time I experienced first hand being barricaded out of a building. Getting to the gym I work at and finding the door boarded shut and finding out that the boss has $15,000 in back rent that has to be paid immediately. I mean I know he is a piece if work but I never actually thought that this would happen. He always seems to get his act together at the last minute.

I have to say. I will miss my girls, or at least most of them, but it Is almost going to be a relief that it is just over. This way I don't have to say I quit. I had no choice. That business is terrible and needs to be shut down or taken over anyway.

Day 62

I have gotten two phone calls in the last week from a staffing agency trying to offer me a job in Boulder, Colorado. I have no idea where this is coming from but I want to call them just to see what it is. I just have to have a few minutes of my day to make the phone call during normal business hours.
Also, in the last week, I have received messages from three different friends telling me they are using me as a character reference for things for them.
I feel like that is a pretty big deal. I feel like, out of all the people that they know, they are choosing me to be the character reference. That they picked me, out of all these people, and trust that I will make them look good so that they can achieve whatever it is.
So that is pretty cool.

I got my new shoes today. And I love them! I also was told that the same person that is buying me shoes basically has no intention of stopping when it comes to buying me nicer things. Which for the most part is ok. I cant afford nice things at this point so if someone else wants to get them for me... I wont refuse. But, this person is having a hard time understanding that I wont just ditch the things that are being replaced. I will hang on to them until they are actually un usable. I am not one to wear something a few times and get rid of it. They have to be actually falling apart for me to just discard them. And for whatever reason, apparently that doesnt make sense to some people.